User blog:Pepperedpopcornn/Victim

I think I am finally done masterbating now. All of these years I have been struggling to play the victim and the rapist in my sexual fantasies. The  rapist wants to act like a sexy, naughty bitch that has a heart filled up to the brim with rage and power. The victim is a more sexually abiguoius figure that is a pretty depressed and weak character. Last night, this night I have just  rececently masterbated. This time was different though, because usually I can control the rapist. But, this time the rapist just kept on raping long after I was finished 'enjoying' myself. I went on from the 1st and 2nd orgasm which can be done with ease onto the 3rd, which is still slighty easy but less common sence the chemical drug like intencsity stops nearly all of the way after the second, unfortunatly, I kept on going onto most certiantly the 5th and mayber even a 6th. Right before the end of the last orgasm after being pushed againist a wall over and over and being told that he/she couldn't escape until it is finished, he/she verbally said outloud, "Stop it." This is the first time that I have ever recalled the victim and the rapist being so far apart in willingness from eachother. I felt like two different people even after it was all said and done. I never want to do that again.